My mom is Pharaoh

Being me, I believe that a person's intelligence can only develop if they are very close to God on a daily basis. It takes a lot, for instance, to raise a child. How do you raise a child? She has to get used to doing the things you do - as a child - and follow that same line of thought progressively in order to grow. She has to know about the consequences of her actions. I had a very tough mother, so my mind escalated indefinitely like this. My mom completes me.

After a while, you begin to understand what people really want from you and expect from you: you have to brush your teeth, not be late, get good grades, and so on… Simple but basic elements to form a new, pretty 'picture' that's gonna be your life. You leave a legacy.

I say copying is better than creating because you don't know everything, and you don't have to understand everything right away. In the end, this is what it comes down to:

'The beginning of wisdom is the fear of the LORD ; the knowledge of the holy one is understanding. '(Proverbs 9:10)

And when you start copying, you start teaching. And then you begin to read and actually have a choice to make about following God. Right at the beginning, I chose to follow Him. This moment when you start making your own choices is the biggest threat of your life:

'Train children in the way they should go; when they grow old, they won't depart from it. '(Proverbs 22:6)

'When Pharaoh refuses to listen to you, then I'll act against Egypt and I'll bring my people the Israelites out of the land of Egypt in military formation by momentous events of justice. The Egyptians will come to know that I am the LORD , when I act against Egypt and bring the Israelites out from among them." '(Exodus 7:4-5)

'I'll make Pharaoh stubborn, and he'll chase them. I'll gain honor at the expense of Pharaoh and all his army, and the Egyptians will know that I am the LORD . And they did exactly that. '(Exodus 14:4)

But what does being smart and making your own choices have to do with each other? Why do we have to copy others? Think of this: Egyptians died for the knowledge that we have today. We're spoilt too. God actually killed them. That's the kind of think He has to do to make us believe Him. You can't be stubborn all the time.

My mom is Pharaoh because my mom wants me. My mom seeks me, and she needs me. She hopes I make something of myself. She hopes I get married. She makes me feel special. That was Pharaoh till the very end of his forsaken life, and then he died seeking for knowledge and understanding. He was the one that died a slave, not the jews. I admire that kind of bravery.

I could have been this person that died in Egypt, but I wasn't. The Lord's mercy is present in my life, and it's my duty to be respectful to everyone.

The Lord's mercy is present in my life, and that makes me glad. The truth is that, since I was a child, I knew I needed God most of all. I was deep, deep, deep in depression from the beginning of my memories. I didn't know why I was who I was, but I always had a strong person in my life, and that's for sure. You don't know what I saw staring at the mirror. ✨ When I made it to my teenage years, I reached the peak of my darkness. The worst kind of pain comes from the soul, I think. Again, I always knew I needed God, and this made me a very smart person: cunning and wise. Even treacherous so, basically a woman. 

The light was out within me, and my only moment of bliss was when I went to church on Sundays because I felt the presence of God there. This was a very special time in my life when anything could have happened to me. I have always needed a strong person in my life, and that person was my mom. She didn't know what she was doing - I think she didn't even like me - but she saved my life and gave me the true gift: she took me to church. She brought me to God! 🙏🏻  I never had anything in my life that didn't come from the spiritual world. I used to see the world as if it were through a 'black veil' of sorrow, but I was ordinary and plain. Terribly ordinary and plain, and there was nothing special about me. That's when I needed my mom…

I've told someone before that you cannot flatter or even suck up to someone who is very deep in depression. They will not feel better if you do. It was my mom with her strength - not her wisdom - who pulled me from this 'unbearable lightness of being.' You can't let this person feel sorry for herself or himself. If they do, they die. You have to keep them going, no matter the cost. They're sick, but they're gonna get better, that's it. The symptoms of the illness will do the job of fighting the cause in this case if you can believe it. You have to keep this person going against their own will. They have to adjust their emotions first, and the people around them are vital to their survival. You can't even imagine. We needed Pharaoh. 

My mom was a criminal prosecutor, and she did a very good job raising me. She gave me Jesus. That's all I need, don't you think? Ain't nobody as bright as me. ✨ 

I'm no trouble. 

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